He has a smile that could light up a whole town. - #1

Yesterday was a day, normal, as always. A boring day of school. The beggining of a daily routine, an annoying one. But, in this day, something different happened, something that made me feel happy to be in school, but at the same time, it was something that was wrong to feel. He was a boy, a boy that has his smile printed in is face every second. That was one of the most beautiful smiles I ever seen. He is in my class, so I just appreciated his face that day. His smile stayed in my mind, till now, and I just think about it every second. But here's the worst part of this thing, the worst part of my life. As I said before, this was a feeling that was wrong to feel, and you are wondering why... because, I have a boyfriend. I love him, but at the same time I hate him for some reasons. He is not making me happy, the behaviours that he has with me are not the same as the old times anymore. That makes me feel sad, and tired. TIRED. I wonder if he still love me, and I wonder if I still love him.I'm just so insecure right now, that I just want to break up with him. And I don't know what to do.